Yesterday, I drove home from Casper, Wyoming, where I had done a teaching interview at a middle school there. The interview went well. I could tell they were impressed by my experience and knowledge when it came to teaching reading. They had a few concerns about my endorsements, certification and licensing in the state of Wyoming, and my lack of experience with clubs and sports. Since I work at a small school, there are limited opportunities to do clubs or sports, especially since our students usually can’t stay after school to even do makeup work.
Even though I felt good about the interview, as I drove home I just had a feeling that I wouldn’t get the job. Who knows if that feeling is me or if it is the Lord preparing me for a “no” on this particular occasion – I don’t know. What I do know is that I’m not feeling too upset about the whole thing. Am I sad, yes. Am I disappointed, yes. But not really upset. I haven’t cried about it and if you know me at all, then you know that I cry sometimes when I get upset. The crazy thing is that I felt really, really good about the idea of moving to Casper. Really good – like crazy good.
So, as I was driving home and thinking about all this, this scene is what I looked out on for about an hour.
Today, as I was editing the photo, I thought that life is like this sometimes. You could, if you wanted to, focus on the dark edges, the moody blue color of the sky, the impending storm and clouds or you could focus on the beauty staring at you in the face. The bright spot of light on the horizon promising sunshine and warmth.
I think my experience in Casper is much like this photograph. I can’t help but look at it and feel a sense of peace. Peace at what is ahead of me – no matter what it is. I believe that all things happen or don’t happen for a reason. I have done my part and now I leave it in the hands of other people and in the hands of the Lord.
What I also can’t help but wonder and think about is that I still want a change. I still want to do something different. I suppose that no matter what happens, I have this summer to figure it all out.
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I don’t want to seem completely rude, unfeeling, etc, so I’m going to skip the main content of this post (even though it is intriguing and thought provoking).
I love that you take pictures out your car window while driving! That is so completely something I would do too.